The Search

© Musue N. Haddad

It’s being a season and some
Feelings of mellowness deep
I watch the days slipping
Flow of our memories flicking
The clock is ticking
Darkness is almost here
So I must search for you

My disquiet-ness is glaring
Confusion, deep long raging
I’m hunched before our spot
Where I learned love bliss
My heart aches a lot
I’m searching the streets
Looking just for you, my love

I rummaged around palm grove
But you weren’t there
I wept at the fallen trees
Leaves all withered and reddish
I combed the cassava grove
Only dead stems stared at me
My eyes are worn and reddish

Come towards me, my darling
Let’s meet at the T-junction
Or meet me at the sandy turning
Where our hidden villages glow
Let’s get some catfish again
Or walk the streets again
I’m searching for you, my love

Where are you, my dear?
I long to see your face
Feel your hands in mine
Eat in a bowl together
Stroll like it’s our last
Whisper till its dawn
Wake up delightfully refreshed

I’ve walked the dusty roads
Some unpaved, others bumpy
Litters in our rivers overflow
I pulled at bushes, and flower beds
I’m searching for you
Please come; hold me in your arms
Tell me again, what you said.
I love to hear you tell me,
“I love you deeply, and forever.”

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I Wait

© Musue N. Haddad

I wait to be held
In your arms
Hold me, cuddle me
Watch over and love
Intensity of your arms
Warmth of your touch
Caressing of your fingers

I wait to be hugged
Gently, soothingly, lovingly
I crave to be hugged
Love to be hugged
Sheltered in a loving arms
It's a a beautiful dream
I'll surely stay in forever

I wait for whisper
Soft, gentle whisper
Your breathe on my neck
Tender warm air on my ears
Fill with sweet soothing words
I'll wait to hear it more
As you inch closer to me
Reach the core of my heart
Come honey, whisper to me

I wait to gaze
Deeply in your eyes
Reflection of stars inside
Feel your heart pounding
And your love flies.
Soaring higher and higher,
Reaching for the skies.

I wait to be kissed
Softly; then earnestly
A kiss I so desired
Take me in your arms
On the wings of love,
That’ll linger forever
Enduring and so true
Just for me; me and you

I wait to be your bride
Your hands in mine
Secured, protected, loved
In your heart; eyes
Make a pledge you keep
I’ll honor you my darling,
Give you my fullest heart
With all that I am.


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I’m Quiet

© Musue N. Haddad

I’m quiet
And silent
Whisper softly
Tread gently
But deep inside
There’s a storm
So very near
Waiting and watching

I’m quiet
And hush
Mumble lightly
Walk in silence
But in my eyes
Unseen tears flow
Rolling down my cheeks
No longer can wait

I’m quiet
And wordless
Hurt deep inside
Wail in silence
Without a sound
The grinding agony
Throbbing of my heart
A quiet storm in my heart

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"Don’t Ask"

© Musue N. Haddad

You said “Don’t ask.”
When I asked
You said don’t see
When I opened my eyes
You said don’t touch
When I desired a touch

I’ll shut my mouth
At your request
But more questions
Deep within my heart
As it drips with tears
Aches in my heart

I’ll shut my mouth
But not just my mouth
And you know just that
My mind overflows all
Things that were said
And the predictions
Of what you'd do


I’ll keep my mouth shut
About you, about us
Just as you insisted
To do just as you insist
I’ll look the other way
Not to see; not to ask
Not to want to/a touch
Expect nothing less

(First drafted October 2011)


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Flip, Flop Life

© Musue N. Haddad

Flip, flop, flip flop
That is just it
What is it?
One day it is up
Next day what happens?
It is all down

Who wants a Flip Flop life?
Instability, insecurity
It’s all a flux
For the soul
Collapses, crushes
Million broken pieces
Irrevocable; beyond repair

Do you like flip flop?
I do not; I don’t!
Not in this place
Never in the home
I abhor flip flops
Here, there, anywhere
It crushes, and sinks
The home and heart
Such irreparable damage!
What Flip, Flop life.
A Life of Instability


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Lost Dreams?

© Musue N. Haddad

Where are the dreams
That came to us
Beautiful dreams unfulfilled
Are they lost in our dreams?
Or carried away by the wind
Dreams of beautiful times
We walked together
Hand in hand, side by side
Moving to the future
Where are the dreams that came to you?
They felt beautiful and alive
I waited to touch them
The warmth from its glow
Captivated my heart
And I waited, just for you
To fulfill those dreams
Will you let the dreams go?
And the memories wilt?
Or fly away with the wind?
Are the dreams broken, shattered?
All dead, and lost my dear?
I still hear and feel the dreams
But it feels like a dream.
Was this just a dream?
Do I say farewell to the dream?

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Fill My Heart

© Musue N. Haddad

What a laden heart
A heavy heart from dusk
To dawn
Heart truly occupied today
Filled with reflections, emotions
Teary silence, not a word
To speak of my thoughts
Dreams, hopes, emotions
So I take this time
To bring it all to him
My Lord, my Almighty God
I say to Him
Lord, look deep within me
You know my thoughts, feelings
Why the emotions, feelings
You’re the mighty healer
My guide, and my strength
Provider of strength
Remove the fears
And the silent tears
The weight from my heart
Replace the fears
And the warm tears
And the weakness
With your beautiful love
And strength from above
Send your joy and peace
To fill my grieving heart
You are one and great
Healer of my heart
My provider and guide
As I rise to face the day
No more fears, tears
But joy and peace
Weariness is gone
Replace with strength
Doubt taken over by faith
Your love overridden fear
Thank you for this day.

Copyright © Musue N. Haddad